Why do I feel like each post lately has been a major declaration of my current state of soul searching?? Sheesh! Where is the fun in that I ask ya!?!?
Truthfully, there hasn’t been a whole lotta fun going on lately….it’s a little tough to post about the fun and exciting things we’re doing and how we’re doing them if we aren’t doing them…just sayin’…
But the point of this post is an update on Getting Mama’s Groove Back. (Just a note about the photo above, do you see how DARK it is outside?! Very, very early….)
Onto the update…
Please don’t go on with a drum roll, it’ll just make me that much more anxious to tell you where I’m at.Â And I’m not going to list out the measurements as they have not changed that much. I will say that I’ve lost another 2 lbs (I’m currently 168 lbs) and that I didn’t gain through the holidays, nor during potty training, which really feels like a major accomplishment in and of itself!! Whoohooo!
Joking aside though, to be where I’m at does not make me happy. Since starting this weight loss venture just before the holidays I think I’ve hit my highest and lowest points…it’s been a roller coaster to say the least!Â And when the low moments hit, I usually say I’m having my Goldie Hawn, sitting on the sofa, ““Overboard”” moment/day/week/month. (If you have not seen the movie, rent it and you’ll know what I mean).
A week into starting this challenge we had colds, sleepless nights, the holidays, traveling, diaper rashes from Hell, potty training, potty training, sleepless nights, potty training, sleepless nights…did I say sleepless nights???
All this to say, I’ve REALLY STRUGGLED with how to fit in the “me time” in order to work out and to eat balanced meals. Honestly, it’s been more challenging then I would have ever imagined! I recently wrote about comparing your new life to your old life when you’re trying to accomplish a task…it is aggravating!!! To make a plan and a goal in my current life, I swear I need to also be able to come up with 100 “back up what if” scenarios to be able to fit the “me time” in! I can promise you, I do not have time for THAT!
So then I take all that crazy thinking, and I get upset that I can’t get rid of the weight the way I know I can. I think about all of this as I’m helping my almost 3 year old hold up her princess skirt to go potty, while willing my 10 month old not to crawl any faster or she will have her hands in the back of the potty her sister is currently sitting on, while my almost 2 year old is hopping off the kitchen chair in the other room and running for the bathroom IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION yelling, “Poopie Mommy, poopie!!!”
Seriously? This is my current life?
My coffee and oatmeal are sitting cold on the kitchen counter, I’ve passed by them at least 10 times this morning (does that count as sprints??). At this point I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel…why am I trying, this just wont work….I grab the bowl of M&Ms to reward the girls for both going potty, and reward myself for barely holding onto my sanity.
Except, that’s not really a reward.
That’s just putting me further behind my goal. So that’s why I’m writing this post. Finding time for mom is HARD. Finding time to workout is HARD. Finding the energy to do everything is HARD. Trying to do all of this is NOT a Favorite Thing!
However this is what I’m trying to tell myself:
- If I give up, then I’m showing my children that it’s ok to give up without trying, that goals aren’t worth making.
- If I give up, I’m telling myself that its ok to give up on me, even though I would never in a zillion years give up on my kids, my husband, or my family
- If I give up, I’m telling myself I’m not worth trying just a little harder for.Â My hubs and I have a silly little game, well maybe more me than him. It came about when we were still dating (as he was never really the overly emotional type)….at random times during the day in a very non serious way I would ask “Do ya love me?” And he would always answer, “I do!” in a dopey kind of way, but then he would always follow up with, “Do you love you?” In the same dopey way. I always play swat at him saying that’s not the point, the point is that I LOVE HIM!Â But the truth of the matter, I need to love me too…..and loving me, means making time for me…..time for me means a healthier me, a me that can be there to love on and play with my family, which is ultimately what I want, to LOVE THEM!
I tell you all of that not to say that I know all the answers, I tell you that in case some of you are where I am. I can’t write this blog and tell you that every day is sugar and roses, because doing all that our family does, and all that your family does IS hard and it DOES take a lot out of all of us.Â But I know that I can’t give up on myself, and if you are not where you want to be, YOU can’t give up on YOU either!
I’m extremelly grateful to have Erika helping me out to reach my goal. Check out Tiny Orange’s recent post on her. Seriously, I might give my first born to look as cute and amazing as Erika ~ wait who’s kidding who, she can have all 3 littles! (I kid! I kid!! Maybe…). Erika is also offering a GREAT discount to new clients, so be sure to check out the post!
And I wanted to remind you of the Ritual Cleanse 10% discount that is good for the Month of January. This really is a great way to kick start a weight loss plan in a healthy way…nothing like giving yourself 15 lbs of veggies a day for 3 days!!Â And remember, I lost 3″ of prego belly during those 3 days! Promo code is “FAVeverything”.
Best of luck to you! I’m off to walk with the Littles!