{Me Time} a holy hades moment

This weekend I had a little HOLY HADES moment.

I looked at Piper (who is 18 months) and then realized that next month is my baby sister’s 2nd wedding anniversary.  (Such a special and incredible weekend, and I’m sure gave our parents their own Holy Hades moment!)

(Photo Credit: Adam Latham)

How are the two things connected?? Let me tell you…

The weekend my sister got married was a turning point for Hubs and me.

We weren’t just a happy engaged couple planning our fun wedding in Hawaii….

We weren’t just a giddy newlywed couple, moving into our first home…

We weren’t just a newly pregnant couple, excited about our 1st child’s birth…

We weren’t just a tired/excited couple enjoying our brand new baby…

We weren’t just new home owners, remodeling our very first home in 11 weeks…

No.

We were in fact in fast forward mode, each time you blinked there was another wonderful, beautiful, and incredible thing happening every few months in those first 2-3/4 years…life was FLYING!!!

(Photo Credit: Adam Latham)

That weekend, we were in fact 1 month shy of our 3rd wedding anniversary…

Our first baby was 19 months….

Our second was 8 months….

(Both were so sick with Pneumonia that they only made an appearance for family photos and were quickly rushed back to the hotel with my in-laws. We were on the phone with their doctor almost every hour…pretty sure we’ve never experienced anything like that weekend. I had not showered in 2 days in the photo above…)

(Photo Credit: Adam Latham)

And I was 5 months pregnant with our third….

(Thank goodness my beautiful sister and her sweet friends kept us busy, or I might have cried at the reality of it all!)

(Photo Credit: Adam Latham)

I knew that life was a little tough as we were living in it, but to look back at the photos, even of just last year and see how young are kids really were….well, it kind of blows my mind.

Which brings me to why I’m writing this post. (Aside from sharing photos of my gorgeous sister and cute children!)

In case you have not noticed, posting has been a little lite lately.

There are a few reasons for this…

1. I worked my tail off this past July to prepare the daily posts for that month, but also one for each day in August that we would be away (and not near an internet connection). That work load + our kids, it wore.me.out.

2. Then we went away for 4 weeks in August. While we were away, I realized how split my brain was with trying to run this blog and also be there for our family. It’s tougher than you would think. Definitely more difficult that I thought it would be.  And I think as the Little Punks get older, and enter different stages that I’m in ever changing mom mode.  I feel as though I’m not really giving enough to any section of my life right now. And I don’t want either side to suffer.

3. Then I have an internal battle with myself thinking there are lots of moms out there doing a lot on a daily basis, how come I can’t pull all this together a bit more?

I can do better…

No, I’m pretty much tired beyond belief…

I can do better….

No, I’ve pretty much aged 10 years in the last 3….

I can do better….

You get where I’m going with this.  And it’s not like I don’t want to share with you all everyday. I think about blog posts all.day.long. So many things I do and read and see and hear that I want to share….but finding the time to sit and put the posts together, or balance the kids while I try to pull out the camera to get the photos to write the posts…doesn’t always happen. And then I feel like I’m falling short for you, and that I didn’t get to enjoy the moment with them.

4. I need to accept my current (amazing, blessed & AWESOME) reality. I have 3 children. They are 3-1/2, 2-1/2, and 1-1/2. They need A LOT from me every single day.  Addie has just started preschool 2 days a week this year which has been so fun for her, and definitley a help to me.  But the reality is, those little punks are lots of fun and lots of work all.at.the.same.time. And by the time they go to bed each night, my eyes can barely stay open.

(Photo Credit: Sandy Heit)

Soooooo all of this to say, I’m not hanging up my hat, at least not yet. But posting will stay a little lighter as I try to find a good balance for our family and for the blog.  I hope you’ll stick with me!  I love reading your comments and suggestions (and I’m so sorry that I lag  in return comments…).

Thank you for being incredible readers, for hanging in there with me, and for making this blog what it is!!

18 thoughts on “{Me Time} a holy hades moment”

  1. I love your honesty! I am new to the ‘mom of 2’ club & quite honestly, I don’t know how you do it!! Good for you for recognizing that you need to take a little more time for your punks & hubs. Life goes by too quickly. Your website is beautiful & I always enjoys your posts. I’ll look forward to the next post … Even if that is a few weeks/months away :)

  2. Dear Wonder Woman, You amaze, you know this. When it works for you…we all will be here, patiently waiting. xoxo. T

  3. I have to say that you are truly amazing woman, mom and blogger….you should not feel guilty in the least bit. We ALL have those hours, days, weeks, where there is just not enough time for us to get it all done! Know that we all understand and support you!

  4. Your candor is refreshing, true, and mutually heartfelt. It is a tightrope we all walk as moms as we seek to balance everything in our life. And there will always be those poeople you “think” that can do it better. In reality, we are all just doing the very best that we can and we are all in this crazy adventure together!

  5. Peggy nailed it on the head. We all love to read your posts, whether it be one a day or one a week or one a month! Our babies won’t be babies forever… xoxo

  6. Beautiful post, I am so proud of you. Blogging will always be there, this time with your kids at their ages won’t. And I love to read your posts whether they are daily, weekly or monthly or yearly! Your readers that love you will always be here when you are ready and have the time! Xoxo

  7. Lady! You are awesome! I am so impressed you have been blogging so much for so long. With my 2 so close together I am down to 1-2 a week if that and usually it’s just picture posts. I don’t know how you do it! You won’t hear any complaining from me if you blog less. In reality, I can’t read every day anyway. :-). Good luck! Stay awesome and lovely!

  8. I think we all burn the candle at both ends…part of our make up :-) Thank you for your assurance…it really is nice to enjoy these little babes! I’ve got to check out your eggplant recipe….we’ve got them coming out of our veggie garden ears right now!

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